What to think

Yesterday my therapist asked what thoughts I had about the prior weeks sessions. Truth is, I’m not sure what to think right now.

I have so much information coming to me, about many different issues. With everything I have been reading from twitter to blogs to newspaper articles and books. Sometimes things I read are different from what she tells me.

So I wonder….. is it important for me to forgive? I don’t really think I can and not sure that I want to. Forgive my brother for what he did to me? Forgive my Aunt for kicking me out of the family because I wasn’t behaving in the manner that she though I should be!

Why am I upset about my Aunt? I was sent to live with her after my parents died. How can she not understand why I was messed up? Did she even try?
She kicked me out of the only family I had left. She made me an orphan, again.

So much shit has happened that I just don’t know what to do or how to deal with it.

I sure hope this therapy thing works out.

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About Avictimnomore

Lost soul, trying to find myself. Trying to learn to be a survivor of child sexual abuse, the death of my parents when I was a teen, and being disowned by my remaining family.
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3 Responses to What to think

  1. Ashana M says:

    A lot of people say forgiveness is important. I’m not one of them. Good luck on your journey. Take care.

  2. goldfish says:

    I don’t think I will ever been able to forgive. Some say it’s important and I don’t begrudge victims who are able to, but I can’t. Maybe after they are dead, but not now while they’re still out there able to create fresh victims. I’m not sure I want to either.

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