Monthly Archives: July 2013

Weak

Today I feel weak. Sometimes it is a struggle to be strong. I feel that if I let myself break down, let myself really feel, that I won’t be able to recover. Sometimes I want to let go. Why do … Continue reading

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Tears

All these tears were meant for me All these tears I won’t let be Today one slipped I cannot lie Each one that falls A little piece will die

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Today’s revelation

In my usual state of confused thinking, I have decided today that as crappy as I feel my life is, it may not be as bad as I think. I’m sure my mind blows things out of proportion. I also … Continue reading

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Learning to think differently.

This is the second time I have read this somewhere today. I think I’ll give it a try.

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Thinking

Here I am again, 1:00am, up way too late. Good thing is I don’t have anything to do tomorrow. See! A bright side to not having a job. I would like to thank my therapist for helping my mind work … Continue reading

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Under a Rock

Today I am feeling sad, confused, depressed…….. Why? Who knows. Nothing is different, nothing changed. I slept about 12 hours last night and could have kept on sleeping all day. But, we have to continue on with life, like it … Continue reading

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Cessation

Just got home from group. We did a little project, art project of course, about an obstacle in our lives and overcoming it Mine was about how my life seemed good until my parents died. Even though I was sexually … Continue reading

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Nurturing

Sitting here thinking, when I should be sleeping. There should be an off switch to the brain. Thinking about my last two therapy sessions. Each with a different therapist. When talking about the other therapists that I liked, both therapists … Continue reading

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I’m stuck

One week ago I lost my job. Another one, again. At least it wasn’t my fault this time. This is starting to become an all too familiar scenario for me. Here I sit, trying to keep my thoughts together. Trying … Continue reading

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