I am finally out of the deep dark hole I have been in. It has been two weeks of decent feelings. No dread of things to come, no sleeping all day. I am almost functioning as a “normal” person. I started taking Abilify a few weeks ago. Seems to be working so far. Then again I may just be in one of my up moods. Only time will tell.
The mental health facility that I go to is having a rally April 1st to start off Sexual Abuse Awareness Month. I was asked if I wanted to speak, to tell my story. As great as that would be, and as helpful as it may be to others, I am not sure I am ready to do that yet. Last year when I went to the rally it was really inspiring. I almost wanted to get up and tell my story then. At the very least it definitely set a goal for me to achieve in the future. Now here it is. Is this my time? Luckily I have a little while to think about it.
I so badly want to be able to help others. Even helping one person would be so rewarding. This is a big thing. I really hope I can get up the nerve to do it.