Yes, I had another HUGE anxiety episode today. I didn’t bother to mention the big trigger I had Thursday.
I’ve started my new medication and it can’t start working fast enough. Basically it’s like three weeks without depression or anxiety medication because this shit isn’t working yet!
I’m not sure I, or those around me, can wait two weeks for this (Latuda) to start working. I’m getting close to hospitalizing myself. I’ll wait and see what happens another day.
IM FUCKING SICK OF THIS SHIT AND BEING ME!
By Sarah McLaughlin
Sunday is Gloomy,
My hours are slumberless,
Dearest, the shadows I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be flowers and prayers that are sad,
I know, let them not weep,
Let them know that I’m glad to go
Death is no dream,
For in death I’m caressing you
With the last breath of my soul I’ll be blessing you
I was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you