Category Archives: adoption

Another Episode

Yes, I had another HUGE anxiety episode today. I didn’t bother to mention the big trigger I had Thursday.  I’ve started my new medication and it can’t start working fast enough. Basically it’s like three weeks without depression or anxiety … Continue reading

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Another Rollercoaster Ride

I awoke today (Wednesday) with more energy than I’ve had in quite some time. It was nice, although strange and a little guilty feeling. That lasted about three hours until the aggravation and anxiety set in. I’m trying very hard … Continue reading

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Whew!

That was a rough week. One of the shittiest I’ve had in months. I won’t say that it’s all over or I’m all better now, but I do feel a little better and have gained back some control of my … Continue reading

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More feelings, more hate……

I’m still thinking too much.  I want it to stop.  My therapist says it’s good for me.  Now, if only I could cry. That’s supposed to be the best part.  I came across this article tonight, thought I would share … Continue reading

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Just in case….

Just in in case anybody is paying attention, I hate my life.  I have little bits of joy here and there.  But for the most part it sucks.  How much of it is real? How much of it is perceived … Continue reading

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Regrets…More Holiday Blues

Regret. Plenty of it.  You’re supposed to live your life without regrets. Ha ha. How does one do that? Are there really people who have no regrets? Do we evolve so that we can take those regrets and turn them … Continue reading

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Another Joyful Holiday 

Well, another joyful holiday is upon us. I’m laying in bed, in the dark trying to feel better but just thinking of all the reasons I feel like crap.  November is a bad month.  First there was my girlfriends fathers … Continue reading

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A Victim No More…….day 1

Just got done reading through all my old posts. I wonder if I am any better. A lot of repetitive thoughts and feelings. Source: A Victim No More…….day 1

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Hugs

Am I too old for hugs?  Sometimes, many times  I just want a hug. Not a put your arms around me for a second and give me a couple pats on the back or something. Although that would be nice … Continue reading

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Thoughts from my session today

Thoughts 11/3/15 Feeling a little weird today, can’t really explain the feeling. Thinking a lot about my therapy session from this morning. Didn’t really go over that much new. Read a portion of what we did last week. The part … Continue reading

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