Category Archives: adult survivor of child abuse

ANXIOUS RANT

It’s been almost two months since I’ve written.  I’m off the Latuda because it made my blood sugar too high. So, I am trying something different.  My brain has been on pretty much of an even keel since I have … Continue reading

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Another Episode

Yes, I had another HUGE anxiety episode today. I didn’t bother to mention the big trigger I had Thursday.  I’ve started my new medication and it can’t start working fast enough. Basically it’s like three weeks without depression or anxiety … Continue reading

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No Meds

Boy, have I been a grumpy bitch for the past few weeks. Now I am totally weaned off my meds, tomorrow I should be able to start my new meds ($ permitting).  The good part is that I’m not extremely … Continue reading

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Christmas Eve

Here it is Christmas Eve I’m sitting all alone, I don’t know where anybody went. I had high hopes for this Christmas, I started out the month good. I was in a good mood, I was happy and excited, ready … Continue reading

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I had a dream. Part One

December 14, 2016 I haven’t written for a long time because I’ve been lazy and tired, probably somewhat depressed a little stressed out. Last night I had a dream I was working at Walmart most of my dreams happen at … Continue reading

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Managing Emotions

One of the things difficult for me, as a result of childhood sexual abuse, is my inability to handle my emotions.  I used to think that I dealt with my emotions well. Now I see that is not the case. … Continue reading

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Puke

I know certain people, and even people I don’t know, think that we shouldn’t share all our business etc., on Facebook and social media.  Maybe they don’t want to hear it at all.  So, to all of “those” people, I … Continue reading

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I really fucking hate my life sometimes. 

I keep trying and trying. Try to be a good person, try to be kind.  Try to learn how to work with my depression and anxiety. Trying to learn how to change the way I feel and react to things. … Continue reading

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Whew!

That was a rough week. One of the shittiest I’ve had in months. I won’t say that it’s all over or I’m all better now, but I do feel a little better and have gained back some control of my … Continue reading

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Worried? 

For those of you friends and family who may be worried about me and my experiment and rested sure that so far my numbers are all good. And I realize it’s only been a day or so but so far … Continue reading

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