Category Archives: awareness

Another Episode

Yes, I had another HUGE anxiety episode today. I didn’t bother to mention the big trigger I had Thursday.  I’ve started my new medication and it can’t start working fast enough. Basically it’s like three weeks without depression or anxiety … Continue reading

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Christmas Eve

Here it is Christmas Eve I’m sitting all alone, I don’t know where anybody went. I had high hopes for this Christmas, I started out the month good. I was in a good mood, I was happy and excited, ready … Continue reading

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Therapy

Today is one of those days. I’ve been having “one of those days” since last Friday. Really, it probably all started with Mother’s Day. All the pictures and memories of my mom and grandmother. Got me really thinking a lot.  … Continue reading

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Kind Words

Yesterday I had individual therapy. Even though we talked about things I’d done in the past that still doesn’t make me feel very good about myself, I left feeling pretty decent. I wasn’t sad or depressed, or disgusted with myself. I do … Continue reading

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Bad Week So Far 

This week started off rough for me. Monday I had to appear for jury selection. The first case I was called for was against a major tobacco company. That would have been interesting, but I wasn’t sure how missing two … Continue reading

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More feelings, more hate……

I’m still thinking too much.  I want it to stop.  My therapist says it’s good for me.  Now, if only I could cry. That’s supposed to be the best part.  I came across this article tonight, thought I would share … Continue reading

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Just in case….

Just in in case anybody is paying attention, I hate my life.  I have little bits of joy here and there.  But for the most part it sucks.  How much of it is real? How much of it is perceived … Continue reading

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A New Year New Light 

No resolutions. A promise  to myself to try and take better care of myself. Diet exercise, take my dog for walks.  Went with Anne and her mom to hard rock. Had fun. Did ok with my diet until dessert. I … Continue reading

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Regrets…More Holiday Blues

Regret. Plenty of it.  You’re supposed to live your life without regrets. Ha ha. How does one do that? Are there really people who have no regrets? Do we evolve so that we can take those regrets and turn them … Continue reading

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Another Joyful Holiday 

Well, another joyful holiday is upon us. I’m laying in bed, in the dark trying to feel better but just thinking of all the reasons I feel like crap.  November is a bad month.  First there was my girlfriends fathers … Continue reading

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