Category Archives: child abuse

Latuda

I’ve officially started Latuda taking two weeks ago. It isn’t really seem to do much the first week, in fact I experienced a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, outbursts of vocal not physical. Although the second week, last week,  I … Continue reading

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SCREAM WITH ME

Ever feel like dying, ever feel alone, Ever feel like cryin’, lost child in a store, Ever feel life pushing, shoving you away, Ever feel like breaking down, funeral in the rain Feel like slipping away Stand in the corner … Continue reading

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Another Rollercoaster Ride

I awoke today (Wednesday) with more energy than I’ve had in quite some time. It was nice, although strange and a little guilty feeling. That lasted about three hours until the aggravation and anxiety set in. I’m trying very hard … Continue reading

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Christmas Eve

Here it is Christmas Eve I’m sitting all alone, I don’t know where anybody went. I had high hopes for this Christmas, I started out the month good. I was in a good mood, I was happy and excited, ready … Continue reading

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I had a dream. Part One

December 14, 2016 I haven’t written for a long time because I’ve been lazy and tired, probably somewhat depressed a little stressed out. Last night I had a dream I was working at Walmart most of my dreams happen at … Continue reading

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Managing Emotions

One of the things difficult for me, as a result of childhood sexual abuse, is my inability to handle my emotions.  I used to think that I dealt with my emotions well. Now I see that is not the case. … Continue reading

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Down The Rabbit Hole

Today is a day I don’t feel like doing anything I’m supposed to. These days have been growing in intensity. I wish I could say I don’t know why, but I do know why.  I’ve been trying so hard to … Continue reading

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I really fucking hate my life sometimes. 

I keep trying and trying. Try to be a good person, try to be kind.  Try to learn how to work with my depression and anxiety. Trying to learn how to change the way I feel and react to things. … Continue reading

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Whew!

That was a rough week. One of the shittiest I’ve had in months. I won’t say that it’s all over or I’m all better now, but I do feel a little better and have gained back some control of my … Continue reading

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Worried? 

For those of you friends and family who may be worried about me and my experiment and rested sure that so far my numbers are all good. And I realize it’s only been a day or so but so far … Continue reading

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