Category Archives: suicide prevention

Latuda

I’ve officially started Latuda taking two weeks ago. It isn’t really seem to do much the first week, in fact I experienced a lot of anxiety, panic attacks, outbursts of vocal not physical. Although the second week, last week,  I … Continue reading

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Whew!

That was a rough week. One of the shittiest I’ve had in months. I won’t say that it’s all over or I’m all better now, but I do feel a little better and have gained back some control of my … Continue reading

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Kind Words

Yesterday I had individual therapy. Even though we talked about things I’d done in the past that still doesn’t make me feel very good about myself, I left feeling pretty decent. I wasn’t sad or depressed, or disgusted with myself. I do … Continue reading

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Dropping Bricks

Every day seems like something frustrating happens and my tolerance level is very low right now. It’s like I’m drowning and every time I catch my breath and think I can float/relax someone (life) drops another brick on me. One … Continue reading

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More feelings, more hate……

I’m still thinking too much.  I want it to stop.  My therapist says it’s good for me.  Now, if only I could cry. That’s supposed to be the best part.  I came across this article tonight, thought I would share … Continue reading

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I don’t hate you……

I don’t hate you, my brother Kreigh.  I hate the things you’ve done. I hate the way you made the little girl, that was me, feel.  I hate the way I feel today because of the things you did to … Continue reading

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Just in case….

Just in in case anybody is paying attention, I hate my life.  I have little bits of joy here and there.  But for the most part it sucks.  How much of it is real? How much of it is perceived … Continue reading

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A New Year New Light 

No resolutions. A promise  to myself to try and take better care of myself. Diet exercise, take my dog for walks.  Went with Anne and her mom to hard rock. Had fun. Did ok with my diet until dessert. I … Continue reading

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Almost Christmas

It’s almost here! That wonderful time of year where we all share joy and laughter, good times and good food. Bah Humbug! I am dreading Christmas this year more than usual. I am usually a little happy about it. I … Continue reading

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Regrets…More Holiday Blues

Regret. Plenty of it.  You’re supposed to live your life without regrets. Ha ha. How does one do that? Are there really people who have no regrets? Do we evolve so that we can take those regrets and turn them … Continue reading

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