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Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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Toss up

I have so many thoughts in my head I don’t know which to talk about. Should I talk about my anxiety and feelings of never being good enough, never getting a good job again?  How long is my brain going … Continue reading

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I had a dream. Part One

December 14, 2016 I haven’t written for a long time because I’ve been lazy and tired, probably somewhat depressed a little stressed out. Last night I had a dream I was working at Walmart most of my dreams happen at … Continue reading

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I don’t hate you……

I don’t hate you, my brother Kreigh.  I hate the things you’ve done. I hate the way you made the little girl, that was me, feel.  I hate the way I feel today because of the things you did to … Continue reading

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A Victim No More…….day 1

Just got done reading through all my old posts. I wonder if I am any better. A lot of repetitive thoughts and feelings. Source: A Victim No More…….day 1

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Skyway Jumpers

After re reading this post from two years ago, I wonder am I a failure because I haven’t straightened out my life yet? Or am I a failure because I didn’t jump as I promised myself. 52 and counting….. Source: … Continue reading

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Thanks

Thanks.

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Little Deeds

In my attempt to be a better person and actually do the things I think about, I am going to participate in a couple of walks. First, I am raising money for RAINN. They are a big help to survivors. … Continue reading

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Exasperating

Here I sit, another day.  Nothing in my world in too exciting to say.  I have nothing happy to inspirational to say.  That’s why I haven’t written.  What I do have to say is that life is exasperating. I am … Continue reading

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Ready for the new year……I’m not waiting!

I don’t usually make New Years resolutions but I really have to do this. Good bye 2013 – Hello 2014: I have had to raise and guide myself since I was 17. Even earlier when my mom first got cancer … Continue reading

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