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Unanswered questions Biological

Sometimes, when I’m sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I wonder why my biological parents didn’t want me.  The story my brother told me was that I was taken away from the home because of neglect. That’s all he had … Continue reading

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Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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Toss up

I have so many thoughts in my head I don’t know which to talk about. Should I talk about my anxiety and feelings of never being good enough, never getting a good job again?  How long is my brain going … Continue reading

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Managing Emotions

One of the things difficult for me, as a result of childhood sexual abuse, is my inability to handle my emotions.  I used to think that I dealt with my emotions well. Now I see that is not the case. … Continue reading

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Bad Week So FarĀ 

This week started off rough for me. Monday I had to appear for jury selection. The first case I was called for was against a major tobacco company. That would have been interesting, but I wasn’t sure how missing two … Continue reading

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I don’t hate you……

I don’t hate you, my brother Kreigh.  I hate the things you’ve done. I hate the way you made the little girl, that was me, feel.  I hate the way I feel today because of the things you did to … Continue reading

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A Victim No More…….day 1

Just got done reading through all my old posts. I wonder if I am any better. A lot of repetitive thoughts and feelings. Source: A Victim No More…….day 1

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Skyway Jumpers

After re reading this post from two years ago, I wonder am I a failure because I haven’t straightened out my life yet? Or am I a failure because I didn’t jump as I promised myself. 52 and counting….. Source: … Continue reading

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Don’t you dare give up….

Every time I look at that picture when I log on, I have to laugh at myself. I’ve tried to give up numerous times, yet I can’t even do that right. I have been feeling down lately. Just another part … Continue reading

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