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Unanswered questions Biological

Sometimes, when I’m sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I wonder why my biological parents didn’t want me.  The story my brother told me was that I was taken away from the home because of neglect. That’s all he had … Continue reading

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Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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Why?

Sometimes I don’t even know why I try! Why do I struggle to stay alive? Why do I keep going to therapy? To group? Why do I try and watch my blood sugar?  Why do I take all of my … Continue reading

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A New Year New Light 

No resolutions. A promise  to myself to try and take better care of myself. Diet exercise, take my dog for walks.  Went with Anne and her mom to hard rock. Had fun. Did ok with my diet until dessert. I … Continue reading

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Another Joyful Holiday 

Well, another joyful holiday is upon us. I’m laying in bed, in the dark trying to feel better but just thinking of all the reasons I feel like crap.  November is a bad month.  First there was my girlfriends fathers … Continue reading

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Skyway Jumpers

After re reading this post from two years ago, I wonder am I a failure because I haven’t straightened out my life yet? Or am I a failure because I didn’t jump as I promised myself. 52 and counting….. Source: … Continue reading

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Hugs

Am I too old for hugs?  Sometimes, many times  I just want a hug. Not a put your arms around me for a second and give me a couple pats on the back or something. Although that would be nice … Continue reading

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Not Waking Up

Ever have those days when you wish you wouldn’t wake up the next morning? Of course you have. That’s why you’re reading this.   It’s one of those days.  Has been for a few days.  I don’t like being here, … Continue reading

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Thoughts from my session today

Thoughts 11/3/15 Feeling a little weird today, can’t really explain the feeling. Thinking a lot about my therapy session from this morning. Didn’t really go over that much new. Read a portion of what we did last week. The part … Continue reading

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Can’t think straight 

I got approved for a program that will pay for my ultrasound and subsequent care if needed. Glad about that. Only a few more days to wait until my appointment. So I’ve been doing research and have decided that if … Continue reading

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