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Unanswered questions Biological

Sometimes, when I’m sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I wonder why my biological parents didn’t want me.  The story my brother told me was that I was taken away from the home because of neglect. That’s all he had … Continue reading

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Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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Toss up

I have so many thoughts in my head I don’t know which to talk about. Should I talk about my anxiety and feelings of never being good enough, never getting a good job again?  How long is my brain going … Continue reading

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ANXIOUS RANT

It’s been almost two months since I’ve written.  I’m off the Latuda because it made my blood sugar too high. So, I am trying something different.  My brain has been on pretty much of an even keel since I have … Continue reading

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I don’t hate you……

I don’t hate you, my brother Kreigh.  I hate the things you’ve done. I hate the way you made the little girl, that was me, feel.  I hate the way I feel today because of the things you did to … Continue reading

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Regrets…More Holiday Blues

Regret. Plenty of it.  You’re supposed to live your life without regrets. Ha ha. How does one do that? Are there really people who have no regrets? Do we evolve so that we can take those regrets and turn them … Continue reading

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Thanks

Thanks.

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Thanks

I’d like to thank everybody who takes the time to read my blog. Thanks for suffering through it with me. My hope is that maybe one day someone will read it and find the courage to seek help for all … Continue reading

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The Abuse

I’ve been working on a narrative, with my therapist, of the times of sexual abuse by my brother that I remember. I don’t really remember much but, what I do remember is too much.  “The last time my brother abused … Continue reading

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My homework

This is my homework given to me by my therapist last Tuesday. As you could tell I was not too anxious to get started. We are going to be examining in-depth my abuse as a child. I still find it … Continue reading

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