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Unanswered questions Biological

Sometimes, when I’m sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I wonder why my biological parents didn’t want me.  The story my brother told me was that I was taken away from the home because of neglect. That’s all he had … Continue reading

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Hugs

Am I too old for hugs?  Sometimes, many times  I just want a hug. Not a put your arms around me for a second and give me a couple pats on the back or something. Although that would be nice … Continue reading

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Murder/Suicide

I feel right now, that I’ve figured out the reason why people commit murder before they commit suicide. This only applies to people they (the murderer) know.   I believe they love the people they murder and want to take … Continue reading

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In The End

JOHNNY CASH LYRICS. http://youtu.be/McV7pjwVFbE “Hurt” (originally by Nine Inch Nails) I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that’s real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try … Continue reading

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WALK FOR LIFE

http://manateeglens.donorpages.com/WalkforLife2013/LisaValkenaar Manatee Glens Walk for Life On Saturday, September 28, 2013 I am participating in the 11thAnnual Manatee Glens Run/Walk for Life 5k to raise awareness about depression and to prevent suicide. Manatee Glens helps families in crisis with mental … Continue reading

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Passing the test.

This week has been good, up until today. I think I did a good job of maintaining some level of sanity, happiness. I worked hard in the yard and fixing the pool all week. Sure does feel good to be … Continue reading

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One thing I don’t understand……

I remember being abused as a child. What I don’t understand is why I don’t recall myself ever being afraid of my brother back then. I loved my brother. I remember loving him at an age that was after the … Continue reading

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Only temporary

Today I’ve come to the conclusion that my happy days are only temporary. Yesterday I was on a high. Thought I was starting to get it all figured out. Felt like I was making progress in therapy. Thought I was … Continue reading

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Thought of the day

Well, for a short period of time I thought I had some things figured out. Who’s kidding who? Me! It seems that I go from one extreme to another. One minute I feel like I know what to do about … Continue reading

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F. U.

Today I am very confused and sad. Therapy was at 1pm, 8/06/13. Confused because I don’t know what to do. My life is so fucked up and it’s nobody’s fault but my own.

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