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No Meds

Boy, have I been a grumpy bitch for the past few weeks. Now I am totally weaned off my meds, tomorrow I should be able to start my new meds ($ permitting).  The good part is that I’m not extremely … Continue reading

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Why?

Sometimes I don’t even know why I try! Why do I struggle to stay alive? Why do I keep going to therapy? To group? Why do I try and watch my blood sugar?  Why do I take all of my … Continue reading

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Coincidentally 

I was just talking about this very thing to my therapist today. I have been having triggers for a week now. I can’t really identify the trigger exactly but it’s the sick, uncomfortable, anxious feeling that I am getting, the … Continue reading

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Thoughts from my session today

Thoughts 11/3/15 Feeling a little weird today, can’t really explain the feeling. Thinking a lot about my therapy session from this morning. Didn’t really go over that much new. Read a portion of what we did last week. The part … Continue reading

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Little Deeds

In my attempt to be a better person and actually do the things I think about, I am going to participate in a couple of walks. First, I am raising money for RAINN. They are a big help to survivors. … Continue reading

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Exasperating

Here I sit, another day.  Nothing in my world in too exciting to say.  I have nothing happy to inspirational to say.  That’s why I haven’t written.  What I do have to say is that life is exasperating. I am … Continue reading

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My Time To Give?

I am finally out of the deep dark hole I have been in. It has been two weeks of decent feelings. No dread of things to come, no sleeping all day. I am almost functioning as a “normal” person. I … Continue reading

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In The End

JOHNNY CASH LYRICS. http://youtu.be/McV7pjwVFbE “Hurt” (originally by Nine Inch Nails) I hurt myself today To see if I still feel I focus on the pain The only thing that’s real The needle tears a hole The old familiar sting Try … Continue reading

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WALK FOR LIFE

http://manateeglens.donorpages.com/WalkforLife2013/LisaValkenaar Manatee Glens Walk for Life On Saturday, September 28, 2013 I am participating in the 11thAnnual Manatee Glens Run/Walk for Life 5k to raise awareness about depression and to prevent suicide. Manatee Glens helps families in crisis with mental … Continue reading

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Passing the test.

This week has been good, up until today. I think I did a good job of maintaining some level of sanity, happiness. I worked hard in the yard and fixing the pool all week. Sure does feel good to be … Continue reading

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