Tag Archives: Therapy

Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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ANXIOUS RANT

It’s been almost two months since I’ve written.  I’m off the Latuda because it made my blood sugar too high. So, I am trying something different.  My brain has been on pretty much of an even keel since I have … Continue reading

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I had a dream. Part One

December 14, 2016 I haven’t written for a long time because I’ve been lazy and tired, probably somewhat depressed a little stressed out. Last night I had a dream I was working at Walmart most of my dreams happen at … Continue reading

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Growing pains

Here I am again. I’m hoping that one day I will be writing when I feel good or when something good happens, not when I’m depressed or have had a bad day.  I believe I mentioned previously that I have … Continue reading

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Therapy

Today is one of those days. I’ve been having “one of those days” since last Friday. Really, it probably all started with Mother’s Day. All the pictures and memories of my mom and grandmother. Got me really thinking a lot.  … Continue reading

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Not Waking Up

Ever have those days when you wish you wouldn’t wake up the next morning? Of course you have. That’s why you’re reading this.   It’s one of those days.  Has been for a few days.  I don’t like being here, … Continue reading

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My Own Private Hell

It’s located entirely in my mind. What an awful place to be sometimes. It started this past Thursday when our new group therapist said she couldn’t really offer individual therapy. Maybe I should back up a little……. For at least … Continue reading

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The Two Sides Of Me

Learning, learning, learning. This therapy thing has me constantly learning about myself. My homework from therapy Tuesday was to observe children at various ages of when I was abused and write in my blog. I haven’t done any observation, but … Continue reading

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Under a Rock

Today I am feeling sad, confused, depressed…….. Why? Who knows. Nothing is different, nothing changed. I slept about 12 hours last night and could have kept on sleeping all day. But, we have to continue on with life, like it … Continue reading

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Cessation

Just got home from group. We did a little project, art project of course, about an obstacle in our lives and overcoming it Mine was about how my life seemed good until my parents died. Even though I was sexually … Continue reading

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