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Unanswered questions Biological

Sometimes, when I’m sitting around feeling sorry for myself, I wonder why my biological parents didn’t want me.  The story my brother told me was that I was taken away from the home because of neglect. That’s all he had … Continue reading

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Not good enough

After the shitty day I had at work I think I’ll talk about not feeling good enough. Not being good enough to have a decent job. Not good enough to have a decent position in a shitty job. Not good … Continue reading

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Toss up

I have so many thoughts in my head I don’t know which to talk about. Should I talk about my anxiety and feelings of never being good enough, never getting a good job again?  How long is my brain going … Continue reading

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Growing pains

Here I am again. I’m hoping that one day I will be writing when I feel good or when something good happens, not when I’m depressed or have had a bad day.  I believe I mentioned previously that I have … Continue reading

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The Abuse

I’ve been working on a narrative, with my therapist, of the times of sexual abuse by my brother that I remember. I don’t really remember much but, what I do remember is too much.  “The last time my brother abused … Continue reading

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Exasperating

Here I sit, another day.  Nothing in my world in too exciting to say.  I have nothing happy to inspirational to say.  That’s why I haven’t written.  What I do have to say is that life is exasperating. I am … Continue reading

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WALK FOR LIFE

http://manateeglens.donorpages.com/WalkforLife2013/LisaValkenaar Manatee Glens Walk for Life On Saturday, September 28, 2013 I am participating in the 11thAnnual Manatee Glens Run/Walk for Life 5k to raise awareness about depression and to prevent suicide. Manatee Glens helps families in crisis with mental … Continue reading

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Passing the test.

This week has been good, up until today. I think I did a good job of maintaining some level of sanity, happiness. I worked hard in the yard and fixing the pool all week. Sure does feel good to be … Continue reading

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One thing I don’t understand……

I remember being abused as a child. What I don’t understand is why I don’t recall myself ever being afraid of my brother back then. I loved my brother. I remember loving him at an age that was after the … Continue reading

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Only temporary

Today I’ve come to the conclusion that my happy days are only temporary. Yesterday I was on a high. Thought I was starting to get it all figured out. Felt like I was making progress in therapy. Thought I was … Continue reading

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